An Uninvited Guest

He comes in without permission unlike some of the others who you can actually prevent from coming in. He violates you because you don’t have a choice; he cares less if u jog eat healthy or go on diets. Every drop of blood in your system cooperates with him because he comes in disguise. He’s in with the good cells and moves round till he finds a suitable place to stay… and this could be just about anywhere he deems fit in your body. He doesn’t care about the pain you feel or the people around you, all he wants is to treat you like you deserve no life…. all he does is infest the place where he decides would be a new home for him. His presence brings about hallucinations, dizzy spells, appetite loss and mood swings. In no time, people around you begin to wonder why you have changed suddenly but you have no answer, perhaps they are the ones changing… you then notice these changes yourself and when you finally report the case you are arrested for aiding and abetting him: for not making a statement early enough.

How would you have known he was slowly killing you and taking you away from the ones you love so dearly? How do you explain to the loves of your life that you finally want to spend all the time you have with them? …now they say you have become ‘too dependent’ I mean, we all know no man is an island… but hey, what’s with the new clinginess? Little wonder, they don’t understand what’s eating you on the inside, they do not realise he’s battling with you on the inside to win a war he decided to start without ur consent. Sleepless nights and very long days, you swim in your own pillow that has now been drenched with tears… now, all you want is for him to leave you the heck alone!!

Why is he so strong and powerful ‘I hate you…I really do ‘freak’ that’s all you say to yourself. For him it’s like pre-school, high school and college, he graduates every class making u feel much worse as he leaves previous stages. If you are lucky enough you would win before he graduates college.  He does not have sympathy for you because you have kids, because to him life is nothing. He won’t hold back because you are in school, trying to get a degree, start a career and have a family.  The only way to get it out of the system when he attacks is through a surgery or better still chemo and radiation, and the doctors ramble on ‘I don’t think you can make it’, you have 6 weeks to live -now they put a time frame on your life.

Chemo makes you moody and weak…   it makes you appreciate people around you less. After all they can never feel your pain and to you they just don’t care. But when it truly hits you, when you are able to see beyond the delusions and the vile moods he lays so heavily on you, you fight with all you’ve got in you, you fight to stay, you fight to see the future of people around you, you fight to see your own future and finally you fight to fulfil your purpose on earth.

This is for everyone who knows someone that knows someone combating cancer. Let’s keep praying for a cure and let’s keep up with the fight -like those that have kicked him in the face and won the battle, they went on to live 10 years after a 6 week time frame.... Cancer fears no man but he definitely respects God who alone calls the shots and because He is the author and the finisher of our faith, until He says it is over it truly isn’t.