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Wednesday 25 May 2011

Letter To My Grandmother

I would never have thought time would go by so quick. On this day last year, you said goodbye to everyone who loved you so dearly including me. I would never have thought I would heal from taking in the information of your death because it took me a while to forgive myself I felt I should have known you were going but did not and as a result, didn’t say my last goodbye.

On the 9th of May 2010, I remember being so happy that my best friend had gotten married and as I was leaving the hotel and coming home, the excitement hadn’t left me yet. I also had exams to prepare for so I had to get ready to leave almost immediately. You came home to spend time with the family and for some reason I was just so non-chalant; I was more concerned about getting ready to check in at the airport and hoping not to be late. Right before you left you called my name and said “I’m tired”. Why didn’t I know you meant you were leaving because 16 days later you said goodbye to the world. I told myself I wasn’t going to ask God why but secretly I did *well my subconscious did*. A rare gem, a mother to all, a woman that was so precious to my heart, I still hold you in high esteem because you were such a fighter. Words are not enough to blog about you. I had never experienced the death of someone so close and someone so loved, it was all so new. I closed my eyes and all I could see was you. There’s so much I wish I could have said to you on the 9th, like how much I loved you, how much of a role model you were, how thankful I am that our destinies were intertwined and ordained by God.

Grandma I would never forget you, because there’s always a space for you in this very heart of mine. Your gentleness and loving kindness makes me want to be a better person- it makes me want to love selflessly and unconditionally. I love you till kingdom come. Your death leaves a heartache no one can heal, and your love leaves a memory no one can steal. I know I speak for all your loved ones, children and grandchildren. You have taught me that death is not the greatest loss of all; the greatest loss is what dies inside of me while I am still living.

My grandma, my angel the greatest woman I have ever known….Continue to rest in peace my lovely.

Monday 2 May 2011

Wifey 101: Supply and Demand

Hey guys I'm back again, I'm back again, I'm back again, yes. yes. yes!!! That was me singing by the way, excuse me being silly but I have been itching to blog all this while. The problem is as much as I wanted to blog my thoughts; I couldn't because I had 5 essays to contend with. After all the tears and what not, I survived and now just praying for excellent results cos dayum I put in a lot. My friend named this blog title and even wrote most of it, and as much as I love arguing, I couldn't help but agree with some of the points which to me were laughable.

"Lately I’ve been seeing tons of facebook and twitter statuses with girls ranting and raving about 'what they deserve' so I figured I should set the record straight and help y’all understand a thing or 2. In order to “Deserve” something you have to be worthy and be providing something as well. You want a “good man” but what makes you so special to deserve one? What makes you think you so different than all the rest of these girls around here? Oh cuz you thick? Pretty face? NEWSFLASH it’s a million of y’all. lol. Girls kill me with this running around barking out demands and requirements. It’s not even logical to have expectations, standards, and requirements for others that you can’t even meet your damn self. 

Realistically the ratio of women to men comes into play with this also. Women outnumber men on every single scene except the sports bar probably. Therefore WE are the catch. You understand that? WE.US.MEN. You have to work twice as hard to get and keep a man because there is twice as many females to compete with…And the LAST way to get a man is nagging, barking, and whining about what you deserve and blah blah blah. All these demands.. What’s the supply? Seems as though the world we live in women expect to be catered to and pampered in every form and think the ultimate reward for a man in return is a piece of ass. You got to bring more to the table than sex. It’s 2011 sweetheart. Gas Prices are through the roof, I’m not just coming to “see you” unless I’m bout to SEE YOU. lol. That’s for one. And for 2, after that’s done, then what? After a while that pretty face of yours gets tired of being looked at and a prettier face will surface. It’s Supply & Demand, not Demand & Supply. Marinate on that ladies" 

I know people may think he's a male chauvinist.. but let us face the facts..there’s a lot of truth and sense in what he wrote. I mean even people who provide 'exclusive' services for a price also lay hold to the claim that they do deserve better from men *wowzers*. Although this is debatable as you all know people are in it for different reasons.

More alarming are those cantankerous wives whose reputations go beyond the neighbours on the street, they too while constantly ranting down their husband's throat on how inadequate he is also delude themselves that it’s the pathetic union that stands in the way of their eternal bliss. *I make myself laugh* 

Finally there are those girls popularly known as gold diggers that were born into this world to siphon everyone in their path (not just guys in this case) but their female friends who constantly fall victim of this noble characteristic....and imagine such girls thinking they deserve to be treated like queens by a ‘bigger fish’ of course!! I am no judge but I think they truly deserve better…!!

Thanks Derrick for ur insight, its got me thinking errrrmmmm *I indeed deserve the best* ;)