Letter To My Grandmother

I would never have thought time would go by so quick. On this day last year, you said goodbye to everyone who loved you so dearly including me. I would never have thought I would heal from taking in the information of your death because it took me a while to forgive myself I felt I should have known you were going but did not and as a result, didn’t say my last goodbye.

On the 9th of May 2010, I remember being so happy that my best friend had gotten married and as I was leaving the hotel and coming home, the excitement hadn’t left me yet. I also had exams to prepare for so I had to get ready to leave almost immediately. You came home to spend time with the family and for some reason I was just so non-chalant; I was more concerned about getting ready to check in at the airport and hoping not to be late. Right before you left you called my name and said “I’m tired”. Why didn’t I know you meant you were leaving because 16 days later you said goodbye to the world. I told myself I wasn’t going to ask God why but secretly I did *well my subconscious did*. A rare gem, a mother to all, a woman that was so precious to my heart, I still hold you in high esteem because you were such a fighter. Words are not enough to blog about you. I had never experienced the death of someone so close and someone so loved, it was all so new. I closed my eyes and all I could see was you. There’s so much I wish I could have said to you on the 9th, like how much I loved you, how much of a role model you were, how thankful I am that our destinies were intertwined and ordained by God.

Grandma I would never forget you, because there’s always a space for you in this very heart of mine. Your gentleness and loving kindness makes me want to be a better person- it makes me want to love selflessly and unconditionally. I love you till kingdom come. Your death leaves a heartache no one can heal, and your love leaves a memory no one can steal. I know I speak for all your loved ones, children and grandchildren. You have taught me that death is not the greatest loss of all; the greatest loss is what dies inside of me while I am still living.

My grandma, my angel the greatest woman I have ever known….Continue to rest in peace my lovely.